Crumble Cake

If you know anything about me, you know I have meltdowns from time to time. It just comes part of the package; you know the maid, the cook, the mom, the errand runner, the appointment scheduler, the financer, the career woman. Every so often it just kind of swallows me whole and I crumble.

Touch me, poke at me, pick me up, take a bite, walk by me too quickly, and I just start falling apart. Sometimes crumb by crumb, sometimes chunks here and there, and rarely, just rarely, I just implode.

Needless to say... Today has just been "One of THOSE kind of days."
It's actually been a crummy last few weeks. But work was really the topper for today. Most of you know I'm an Engineer. I work for a local utility company. We make power. I keep your lights on. What does that mean? It means working with a lot of dudes with a lot of egos. It means keeping it together all day and not realizing how much stress your under until you have to deal with crying children at home. It means getting dinner ready and chasing kids around the house. It means stepping in someone's sticky mess from earlier in the day to walk around sticking to the floor every step you take. It means wanting to put your kids in a straight jacket so for just a moment you can have one hour of just blissful quietness. It means making greek salad only to time the chicken wrong and pour the dressing on the lettuce so that when the chicken is finally done, the salad is soggy. It means not having the right temp on the grill so that your chicken actually looks like fish and tastes like rubber. It means trying to enjoy a new mountain bike but injuring your hand instead.



It means finding out your swollen thumb is a complete tear of the ligament to being stuck in a cast for 6 weeks (1 wk, 4 days down; 4 wks, 3 days left to go).

It means finding that your hand is swelling because your bloated and pms-ing and short of taking a saw and cutting the flipping cast off.
It means just finally saying enough is enough and letting yourself crumble so you can pull yourself back together for another day.

To read more "skulky" posts read here.

And just so you know I'm not depressed, just had a rough day, here is James and his friend on our evening walk. He was adament on her holding his hand. I could just see him thinking of Wally - his absolute favorite character to draw - You know how Wally wants to hold Eve's hand?